Tough Days Ahead

So, I'm having a tough day. Despite eating next to nothing lately because of a tooth problem, it seems that I have regained three pounds. I should have expected it as the initial weight loss of 14 pounds came from being in the hospital and initially being dehydrated, but it doesn't make it sting any less. The only thing I will be changing is exercise, but I still don't entirely feel up to it. I guess one never really feels up to the challenges of starting to exercise - it really only feels good when you make progress, but with a tooth that is now going bad and the fatigue that I still feel with the new eating methods, it is hard to start. Plus, I have this bad habit of expecting the perfect timing - you know, getting up super early, starting with a nice tea, a meditation, and then beginning with 30 minutes of yoga. I can't seem to do it yet.

It's going to be tough in the next few months. I want to aim for ten pounds over the course of the next couple of weeks - that is a lot, but that is only a starting point. It would mean a total of 24 pounds lost, but I believe that it constitutes the overall amount of weight that will put me at the right starting point, based on temporary stores of fat and stores of water that is not being used efficiently. My stomach is still not working correctly, with only 6 bowel movements in three weeks, not counting the five days I was in the hospital. I am torn on how to address that problem, and likely will have to take Dulcolax to get my stomach moving - and movement will help, but I feel all out of wack.

Hopefully, there will be better news soon, but a present, I am feeling the despair of what feels like an impossible chore.