Toward Tomorrow

Things are getting slowly better. I feel like myself a bit more every day, although the last couple of days have been a set back. I was extremely fatigued, with no real reason for it. I am quite seriously (as in not seriously at all) about to start a Go-Fund me page for the costs of the food I now have to eat. I am especially fond of the keto Enlightened Ice Cream, but the costs are killing me - and the lack of availability is also a problem. I could order it, but it requires a higher cost per pint at 8.00 per, with a minimum of $50 worth at a time - but they do have Pumpkin Cheesecake and Peppermint Brownie, so that Go-Fund me account is sounding mighty tempting.

Otherwise, my blood sugars are good, even when my eating is a little off. Tonight I had two tortillas, which is way too much in the way of carbs, and my blood sugar stayed within my self-imposed strict range of 100 to 130. It was 129, but I have to say I didn't feel so good after I was done. That was a strange experience, where I thought that either my blood sugar was sky-rocketing or dropping - but it was neither. Right after the meal it was 123, then rose to 129 two hours later.

I haven't started to exercise. I want to do it, but I think that fear is holding me back. I was so sick before, and there is this constant worry that I will do something that throws me out of balance. Exercise shouldn't, but then again there is a remote possibility that it could dump my sugar into the lows - and that is just as bad as too much high.

This disease is so much worse than most people think. They think that you just take your meds and all is good. It is so much more complicated. I have had metabolic disasters on several occasions, and yes, I take full responsibility, but I have almost died twice because I don't seem to respond to the treatments. The consence is that one more time might just kill me. I really don't want that -

So, super expensive keto friendly ice cream it is, and 11.00 per 2 pounds of almond flour, and ...I could go on, but you get the picture. The cure is killing me financially - keto is about the only way I can go - or near keto - so I am stuck with foods that have uber expensive ingredients and my poor baking skills attached...until next time.